I think I hate my ex...is that normal?

Sometimes when you look at former loves, you are reminded of the good times as well as the bad. Obviously I can't speak from your standpoint, but if he did something that you couldn't honestly forgive at this point in your life, simply just seeing him or talking to him just may bring that memory back to you.

My suggestion is just simply to move on with your life, and if by happenstance you run into him, just don't talk to him. If he's not trying to get ahold of you, eventually your lives should drift far enough away that it won't matter any more to you.

Either way though, if it is unforgiveness for something he did, you may want to put it to rest for yourself so that you don't let it eat at you for too long.

Life is full of love and hate, and you have to have chaos to make order and order to make chaos. I'd like to give a friend of mine a swift kick in the pants, but that's just because you know that they know they don't have to do immature things, but they do it anyway, and the less you care about someone, the less importance their impact has on you. And if I didn't care I wouldn't waste my time kicking my friend in the pants, lol. And, lol, I'm not really going to do that, but you get what I mean.

At least have the courage to tell him the truth. Then you won't worry about him ever "bothering" you.

Same thing happend to me, it's like you regreat it, and you wonder yourself, what was I thinking?, you probably never really liked him, it's totally normal that you want to stop all contact, cause that's the sign that you just want to move on with your life, and leave that relation-ship behind, and why not forget about it, I don't see anything wrong with that, the problem comes when the other person doesn't see it that way, and they either want to stay friends with you or go back toghether eventually (wich is kinda annoying) and yes it might become in an ugly situation for you, cause you have to put your energy on avoiding the person, and you will eventually start to really dislike him and be upset when he doesn't let you move on. So I would say you can either avoid him until he gets it or tell him to get over it and that you don't want to have anything to do with him, no matter how harsh it sounds, but I'm telling you, that way you're gonna close that chapter of your life and forget it ever happened

People are meant to move on with their lives when they break up (unless it's more of a temporary break- knowing that after they work on themselves they'll get back together). I recommend buying the book "it's called a breakup because it's broken". great read! It discusses the hard topic of talking after the breakup.

Now while I wouldn't have lied about leaving the country, I agree that not seeing him will help with those negative emotions. Try to explain nicely (but firmly) that you need to cease all communication- it's the healthy thing to do. And since you're no longer a couple, only be concerned about your own well-being during that conversation.

And for the record, the people who are still "friends" with their ex's are generally not over them, or are using them as f* buddies. Either one is not emotionally healthy.

I'm the same way as you. I almost always end up hating my ex's, and there's really no reason for it as I've never had a "bad" relationship or whatever.
I think part of it is that when I'm around them I feel awkward thinking about the things we'd done together, sexual or not, because to me it feels like they don't care about those things since we're no longer together.
Either way. . . yes, in my opinion you are quite normal.