The first man I've ever loved broke up with me last night. I was so upset that I threw my phone as hard as I could. It's in a few pieces right now. anyway, I don't know how to deal with this. He has been my everything for the last 2 years. He was my best friend.. the only person I could talk openly with.. the thought of guys makes me sick, so I can't just move on to someone else.
What can I do to make myself feel better? Is there some way I can at least get rid of the suicidal ideations? Ok, I'm not going to kill myself, but I never thought someone could feel so miserable. He lives a few states away and I was planning on moving down there in about 6 months so we could be together.. but I found out last night that he's moving back home-- on the other side of the country.. so I know I'll never run into him again. I'm afraid of not having him in my life. Any advice would be appreciated. thanks.
It's hard. You can't just move on to someone else. You have to give yourself time to heal. Time, that's what it takes. Occupy your time with friends and family. Good luck!!