This sounds lame ,I know, but I'm incredibly shy. I can't find myself to even grab his hand and hold them in public. Last week he tried to kiss me,but I pulled back .Im just too shy, what should I Do? I have never been raped or anything, but yes, I been sexually abused twice,but hasn't effected me significantly.from what I know.
Maybe ask him to take it slow with you - let him know that you are interested but that you need some time to get used to being close to him. Since you pulled back from him, you may need to reassure him that you are interested in him but maybe he's moving a bit fast for you. I'm shy too, and when I met my girlfriend, she used to pounce on me like a cat on a mouse and it used to scare the crap out of me. Finally, after me pulling back from her so many times, she finally got the hint that I needed her to take it slowly with me and that she needed to be gentle with me because I am not the type of person who just jumps into relationships. I don't know if what I said helps, but I hope so!
Ahh. the life of us shy people. sometimes its so hard just to do the simplest thing. we overanalyze or at times exaggerate the situation when all we need to do is just ACT. Next time you are around him and you feel an urge to do something like hold his hand or a quick kiss- DO IT. (not encouraging you to have sex or do anything you aren't ready for). Take your time and start small until you build up the courage to do bigger things- Good Luck/ Blessings with your relationship :O)