What doesn't kill you makes you stronger ,right?

This is a really tough situation, but let me tell you, first, that I have just come out of this same type of situation - where I just didn't want to be around anyone anymore and just wanted to die and drop off the face of the planet because of being hurt so much!

First of all, I realized that whatever the problem was that I was facing, I couldn't seem to find a way out of it. A lady on tv, Joyce Meyers, once said, "Sometimes the only way out of things is to go through them." I realized that the only way for me to get out of what I was going through was to go through! Another guy on tv said, "If you're going through hell, don't stop!" I realized that I couldn't stop in the middle of what I was going through - I had to keep going or else I was going to sink into the muck of depression and despair.

Next, I realized that I had gotten to the point where I was afraid of being around people - anyone or anything. I had to come to the terms that fears are not necessarily real. Someone once said that FEAR stands for "False Evidence Appearing Real." I decided to push through my fears.

After that, I also realized that since I wasn't going to get out of the situation and had to go through it, I needed to get rid of fear and just be myself through it. This has been was I have been going through for the past 3 years. I think I'm almost finally out of it, and I still have my bad days where I'm tempted to allow myself to sink into the mud, but I find that when I fall down, I can just get back up again and start on my path again. It's much easier to be alone than to learn how to deal with people properly.

Something that I highly recommend is learning how to set healthy and appropriate boundaries for yourself. There is a book called, "Boundaries" by Cloud and Townsend that really helped me in my life to evaluate whether I was keeping healthy boundaries with people or not. So many people in my life had crossed my boundaries and hurt me because I did not draw the lines clearly for people or because I had allowed unhealthy people to be in my life. I have been dealing with this for several years and am learning to recognize unhealthy people and boundary crossers when I first meet them and to not get into relationships with them. Thank God! If you need to talk, you can email me at mine and my girlfriend's email address alyce_maloney@yahoo.com and I will be glad to help walk you through what you are going through.

RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE! this is the time where you go, f*** the world, I don't care what you think of me. anyone who pisses you off, you tell them where to get off. Listen to Rage Against the Machine. great band. remember, f***emall! if something bad happens, make something bad happen to the person that made it bad for u.
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There's some good advice here and I just want to add to it.

Have you looked into getting your G.E.D. or equivalent? If you got that, then I would then try looking into local state/community colleges. If you talk to the office of admissions they can definately help you with getting a perspective on how to get back to continuing your education. I was out of high school for a while (like 5 years) and applied as Performance Based Admissions student. You just take tests to see where they place you. That's just some thing to look into. I don't know if it helps any.

You can either take all these things in 2 different ways.
1: You can wallow in your own pain (bad choice)
2: you can prove to yourself that because you have been through all these things and blossomed into an amazing young lady.
you need to know that people can sense "weakness(as they call it)" and pick bully you because of it.
I have a friend that has been through many bad things, and like you has seriously contemplated suicide, but I help her by reassuring her that she isn't alone in this world and that we are here for her.

Think about it, do you have anyone at all that you can turn to?
if so, use them as a crutch.
If not, then find someone nice, caring and compassionate. I know it is sometimes hard to find those sorts of people, but I know they're out there.

Just remember you aren't alone in the world. People do care about you.

Well I admire your strength and courage that has got you this far. I think the best thing you can do is to talk to people, not stay away from them. I think although humans are individuals, at some level we require other people, we're all part of one big entity. Ever read the book " The Grapes of Wrath"? You should read it. All I can say is don't give up, I'm rooting for ya ^^

First off, how old are you?

Honestly as a girl. And as a person who has felt to same way I'm sure a hundred time plus more. Its only best to keep the saying it your head. Life only happens once and no one is perfect. And for the ones that try to make it seem they are by bring the ones down then they straight up need to get over themselves and get a reality check. Everyone in this world it beautiful in they're own way. Just by publicly asking for help, shows that you are a strong person. Look at yourself and just remind yourself that you have been through that and just say f*** it. You are a strong person and NO ONE can tell you otherwise. Fuck Them all.

I went through something similar as far as being bullied goes. In middle school, I was bullied because I was quiet, and it went on for years. I started having panic attacks whenever I was around a lot of people, like at the mall. When I went to high school, I started hanging out with a girl who wasn't a good person, and when I finally stopped talking to her she ended up harassing me until I reported her to the administrators. Now I'm in college, and I'm still quiet, but I'm a lot happier than I was then.

If you want to get back into school, you should work on getting your GED. After that, you can apply to some colleges. I always tell people they should get involved at school by joining clubs in order to meet people.

Just know that you're not the only person who feels the way you do. Right now, it might feel like things will never get better, but they will. I know it's hard to find the motivation to get back into things, but you just have to force yourself to do it.