I cheated now I'm confused. whats going on?

Oh no, he is not fine with it . No one is okay with their partner cheating on them . But people do get scared of losing someone else and that can make them do all kinds of desperate things . And, within that, it is possible to hurt someone else so bad that they stop fighting back .

Tornado's have a still point in the center and I think that's about where you're at . It may seem calm, but there's a storm brewing . Long term it's hard to keep a relationship going once one party cheats and is caught or admits it . That just guillotines trust .

I say role with it if you still love and want to be with him . Everybody doesn't react the same to cheating . Some people forgive and some don't . Just don't do it again if you really care . I can relate, I cheated on my girl and I'm trying to get her back, but she won't go back with me yet . She might not at all, I don't know . I wish I had chance like that . If my baby gives me the opportunity I will never mess up again .

Maybe you have one hell of a guy, who is willing to forgive you, learn from it, and move on with you . Do you know why you cheated ? Have you learned from your mistake ? Do not let him take the blame for it ! Even if he was distant from you, you are the one who made the choice . You have to be able to forgive yourself as well, or it will bother you for the rest of your relationship(s) . I would definitely make sure to stay away from the other guy too . Good luck .