2 years later, I still miss him

It's natural to miss someone who you have positive memories being with. My ex was a psycho, quite literally, and I have no interest in EVER getting back with her. However, when I'm alone there are times when I miss the relationship. In this case it isn't the person I'm missing, but the relationship. Having someone. If you've not had a lot of relationships since you were with this guy then you're still "clinging" to the memories of the last one. Heck, my first relationship was like 10 years ago, and she's now married, but given it was a good relationship while it lasted I still miss it. It's just a natural part of being alone. Give it time and keep working to move on, and don't let this old relationship get in the way of any new one.

I don't think you're supposed to keep waiting, I believe that it's normal to have these type of emotions over your first love. There is no age limit for the first time you fall for someone. My first love was at age 14 and to this day I still care about him. That doesn't mean I'm ever going to be with him or I'm waiting around for him. Everyone always remembers their first and keeps a special place for them in there heart. I wouldn't worry about it, it may seem like this huge thing but really it's totally normal.

Especially since things ended badly and you had no real closure you're probably wondering all these 'what ifs' and 'whys'. Don't dwell on it. He probably has moved on and you should too. Don't close yourself off to the possibility of meeting new guys, you're young, so keep on with your life and know that this won't be the last time you fall inlove.

Hate to say it but you need to meet another guy to take your mind off of him. Have you tried calling him or sending him an email to just say hi? Maybe you can try to get the closure you need. That could be why you are holding onto him.