Is there still hope?

I'd give up the ghost. People don't change. He's not going to become what you want him to be. And you've admitted you're abusive. The best thing is for the two of you to give it up and try to start over, either by yourselves or with someone else. If you stay in this relationship you're only putting yourselves, and your children, in danger.

wow, you and your boyfriend sounds so much like my boyfriend and i, same thing hear it all started when I got pregnant, I would get jealous of other females being around him or when they were on the phone together, and so on. all we did was fight all the time everyday, we had our first child when I was 19 and he was 18 so we were still young, we still fight but were hanging in their, he already has forgotten the past and I'm still working on it, but its been 8 years and we now have 4 kids and were talking bout getting married so I now know no matter what happend between us all the bad times that we had together that he still loves me and wants to work things out, all the rest of the years are only getting to get better, we already had our rough times and nothing can come between us now, I love him but I also hated the things he did. what we do now is instead of fighting bout something we come to one another and say their is something bothering me and we need to fix it or at least try, were working things out and he's showing me that I'm the only one 4 him. so I say if you guys already had rough times and you still love one another and want to work things out, then I say work it out, and good luck with the too of use

You may have some anger issues or you may have a chemical imbalance! Either way, there is a baby involved now, so you should seek out professional help. Friends at this point are not enough. And there is no excuse for a man hitting a woman. He can walk away. But if you have a chemical imbalance that usually gets triggered by the hormonal changes of having a baby, there are some meds that can help you immediately. Remember, in case your doctor did not tell you, it will take about a year for your body to be functioning at its pre-baby stage. Please do not let any man ever hit, slap or touch you. In the same respect do not hit anybody! You both display a bit of immature emotion or an impulse control problem. We expect that from two year olds that do not know better. That is why I think you may have a chemical imbalance. Get help before you and the baby's carry this abusive behavior over to your baby! Best of Luck---and do update !