I know you posted this a while ago, but I'm still going to share this with you...
We broke up 8 weeks ago. I did the NC thing and he only called once to see how I was doing--that was at the very beginning. Then, nothing from either side. I have gone through hell for the last 8 weeks because even though I was the one that left him (he said he didn't "feel it" and was acting all cold towards me and so on,) I was the one that had loved the most...I'm sure you get the picture.
Anyway, last weekend I feel like crap and call up my friend to do my little crying session with her. She tells me to stop crying over him because she had just seen his profile on Match.com and he was on the prowl already. Well, my stomach turned and I get really anxious, and now check this out: I call him to tell him that we need to talk. (Right? What was I thinking? But, I went with my heart on that one!) He obliges...He's very quiet while I'm talking, hears me out, then says he's really sorry. Says I was the one that left and didn't even want to talk to him (one must be careful with the NC thing,) that he had gone through hell too and did not know how to deal with things. That we all go through it in our own way and he just gave Match a try but all he could see was that nobody was like me...That fact made him miss me even more, and meanwhile he was not allowed to call me and tell me what he felt. I seemed very determined and terminal when we broke up (that's 'cause I was fed up with the situation we had going on before.) Side-note; I think that a grown man should be able to go after the one he cares for even when she tells him not too, especially in our circumstances, so that all sounds like a bit of bulls**t. Then again, he's always claimed it's hard for him to express his feelings. Anyway, he also said he was not talking to anyone or dating anybody, on the contrary, he had become quite the recluse...He said he'd like to talk face to face and so we made plans.
Now forward to today (when we see each other after almost 2 months.)
I had no expectations (I put it all in the hands of God.) We were happy to see eachother. Nervous as hell! We had coffee and a light convo. We smiled a lot. We asked a lot of questions. We did not speak of our old relationship though! I kept it short. We said good-bye and hugged. I left. On my way back to the train, I realized I left something at his place. I call him and he does not answer. I turn around, and see him walking towards me... He tells me he misses me, he just had to say it and did not wish me to leave without me knowing that. Says he doesn't know what else to say 'cause he has hurt me so much he wants to be careful, but that there are so many feelings inside of him...Looks at me tenderly. We hug again. Don't want to let go. We smile, laugh...Asks me if he can see me again. I say, "yes, soon." I kiss him on the cheek, and we say good-bye again, with the silliest (and melancholy) grins on the planet!
What do you make of it?