I recently broke up with my boyfriend - he didn't care?

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Hey all ..

I recently broke up with my boyfriend of four months. I really didn't know what else to do. I really truly loved him and he always said that he loves me as well and that he would do anything for me to make me happy .. because I'm his first true love. The thing is - those were his words but he never really showed me that he really did care. I felt that feelings should be mutual, I always ended up being disappointed and hurt and feeling stupid because I cared so much .. I've told him a lot of times, he told me he would try harder - but he never did. I was the one writing love letters, sending super long texts and emails, making a video of pictures of us, posting things on his FB wall that I thought would make him smile, visiting him for four weeks in his home state during the summer .. while he was working sometimes. He would often "forget" to text me for over 12 hours .. when he worked he would always play video games when he came back home or watch TV - while I tried to get his attention and do something together with him. I would get up at 5am all the time to say good morning before he would go to work .. for our 4 months I drew a picture of us and wrote a cute little note and he in return let his best friend upload a collage of two pictures of us where I love you was written underneath - but it was his best friend who did that, not him. When I told him I want from him to show me that he likes me the same instead of always talking about that .. he texted me more than normally but after a day or two he would fall back into old habits. I was the one who always was there for him when he needed me .. he seemed to choose his friends over me at times or his video games. And when I told him he would never understand what he did wrong. Now that we broke up he just said if that's how you feel and you've already made up your mind then take care. That was his whole reaction! I cried and was sad and I still am but he hasn't contacted me in any form since then except sending me a Words with friends request on FB. I accepted because I didn't want to be immature but hell .. he doesn't even want to fight for me! :( If I really meant something to him why would he act like that? Our friends are on his "side" because I was the one who dumped him .. but I just didn't want to be selfish and be with someone whom I love more than he loves me. I told him that I guess I expected him to be someone for me who he couldn't be. At least not for me. I always chased after him and felt stupid and got hurt. I just don't know what to do. I'm hurting and sad and he .. hell, idk. Just please - someone please assure me I did the right thing. :(
I recently broke up with my boyfriend - he didn't care?
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