I'm so fed up with my life, and with people! I'm just so full of anger, and sadness, and rage that it's maddening. I've been miserable all my life, and, you know what, I don't want to be, not anymore. I don't want to feel anything at all, I want to be a machine. See, it was bad enough that no one spoke to me since summer began, then that my friend was a jerk out to make my depression even worse, but now this girl I just met basically lead me on and made an idiot out of me. I'm just so sick of this, and the fact that my depression was getting better proves it never gets better! I'm so angry, I thought I was attractive, but apparently not because everyone rejects me!!! I don't even know why girls reject me, am I ugly, is it because I'm black, why? I'm so bitter, and angry, and sad, and vengeful!!! I just want to know how to stop feeling, I don't want anymore emotions, I just want them all gone, my suffering didn't help me appreciate the "good things in life" it only helped me hate them when they turned on me and left. I will never get over this. Girls have destroyed my confidence at this point, and everyone destroyed my ability to find any joy in life, so I need to stop feeling, I'd even hurt myself, give myself brain damage if I have to, all I want is to escape my suffering, I'll do anything to do so.
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Hey. Hey, relax yourself. Okay. Everything will be better. Just get a room for yourself and I know everything will be alright, It's okay to surrender all emotions but temporarily. Maybe you can't handle yourself being rejected. Maybe that leads you to frustration and depression and all of those negative vibes. All you need to do is learn to handle it. I mean, learn to move on once you feel rejected. Everything is all about HANDLING emotions: how to use, how to control, how to put it in place, who to apply it--everything!
So, take a deep breath and know yourself. :D That's all you can do.0
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