There was a girl I used to/still kinda crushing on. I crushed on her because she was nice to me, smiled alot, and occasionally touched my hands or thighs in friendly love. I figured if I was myself (open minded nice person in general) and took in interest in her likings, then maybe I could create some kind of connection between us.
The more I spoke to her, the more I found out about her. She loved to watch/listen to Korean pop music and idolized the singers. They weren't really special to me, but I bothered to memorized their names to make her happy. She also liked watching male Asian gay p*rn. I would normally be repulsed by it by I watched tons of gay p*rn with her to make her happy.
Throughout that time, she never showed more interest in me than just loving my company as a friend. Heck, she officially called me her best friend. I don't have a problem being her best friend, but I had feelings for her. I put my own choices and likes aside, but for what? To have horrible memories about watching gay p*rn and reading her erotic stories about male korean pop idols fucking...
I feel abused. I'm in love with my best friend and can't leave her. I confessed my love to her. She rejected me and told me to stay. She said no one else did the things I do for her, but she just can't see me as her bf.
Did I do something wrong throughout the way or was she never attracted to me romantically to begin with?
- If the girl makes you watch gay p*rn, that's friendship.Vote A
- She probably was never romantically attracted to you.Vote B
- She wanted a friend and saw one in you. Be happy.Vote C
- A moment of silence for our brother in the friendzone.Vote D
- There's other girls out there who won't make you watch male Asian gay p*rn :)Vote E
Most Helpful Guy
Ditch the bitch. You actually sat there and watched gay Asian p*rn with her. That's about as clear a sign as possible she was not into you. If she was interested in you she would not watch p*rn she would be fucking you. But for her to reject you and insist you stay and "do things" for her is insulting. She's not your best friend, she is a girl you love who does not love you back.2