Why even try if love is just pain and nothing more. All my life, my love life has been nothing more than pain, rejection, and manipulation. Love is literally the most evil emotion I can think of, because it is the best one you can torture someone with. I truly hate and despise love, I hate it with a passion. Seem I was already well down on this viewpoint, and was beginning to get very bitter and angry, then I met the most amazing girl, then, come the last day of school, back in June, we're hanging out at the park, and she tells me that she only likes me as a friend. That was what really put everything into perspective. Any love I have ever felt for anyone and anything has turned into extreme anger. I really wish that she killed me after that, like, shot me, or shoved me in front of a bus, I really do, I'd have preferred that to what I'm experiencing now. I have literally nothing good left inside of me, no hope, no dreams, I'm not going to delude myself about this, I should just be dead. I don't really care what my parents would think if I killed myself, they could just have another child, and my friends could find someone else. I don't want to meet another girl because I don't want another girl, besides, caring for people has only ever fed my hatred anyway. By now I have begun to hate myself and the rest of the world completely. Almost all I think about are new ways for me to die, or what the world would be like had I never been born. I wish I had never been born, and I'm sick of people saying suicide would be selfish, I never chose to live, why can't I choose to die, at least? I'm angry at. God, because I really don't see the point of my existence. I don't even try to be happy anymore, there's no point, and for the last two days, I've just been in one long breakdown. Right now I feel like going outside and just lying down on a road. Apparently, she won't ever love me, so I really don't have any reason to live anymore, I mean, I don't even want to live for myself.
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Aww! 😢 Its ok :'0 ... everybody gets rejected at one point or another /.\ (I know how it feels.-.) but look just because one girl was to stupid to realize what she lost, doesn't mean that every girls gonna do the same thing. You can do better than her, just know again your not the only one who goes through this... And you can't say your never gonna love 💔again? Trust me it'll happen! 😉 (Ive tried -.-) I bet there's a girl out there that really likes you ;D and you should give her chance :') and maybe things will work out better 👍0