No matter how much I tried to fight it, I guess I really am I nice guy. I finally know that I really am just completely pathetic. I mean, I'm bitter, sad, I constantly contemplate suicide, and I feel like I just hate everything about myself. Me, I don't even know what I am at this point, other than a loser. My friend actually said he wants to be like me, but why? Sure, I can flirt with girls a bit, but that only works if I don't care about hem, and that's mostly because I have social skills. He thinks I'm assertive and confident, but I'm not, I hate myself, I hate my life, and my "assertiveness" is just me trying to hold back my aggression from being screwed up in terms of integration with other people for most of my life. Then, I finally realized, I am one of those nice guys that girls complain about. I met this one girl, and I ended up liking her, mostly because she was kind to me when I was at my worst mentally, and believe me, I tried to fight it, I tried not to like her, but I couldn't help it, she was nice, most of the girls I met at my school, the ones I really fell for, they rejected me cruelly, but she was nice. Months passed, and I eventually distanced myself from her to fight my inevitable rejection. When we finally started talking again, I rushed things and told her how I felt quickly, and got rejected. The thing is, she still sat next to me in class, still tried speaking to me, and, things got a little better, I even thought I might turn things around. Now I see, I really don't have what it takes, I can't turn things around, I'm really not that great. Now someone other guy entered the picture, they're not dating, but have good enough rapport, so I really don't stand a chance, I may as well just give up now, see, I am pathetic. I know I won't like any other girl, for a long time (and how I feel, I don't want to wait around to see) because I've seen more attractive girls than her, and still didn't even remotely like them. I don't know what to do anymore.
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Here's a hard lesson that I had to learn, and that you'll have to learn as well. Girls want a bad boy up until they finally realize that bad boys/assholes just aren't worth it anymore. It was until I turned 24 to where girls that I was interested started to notice me. I've got good looks, a high paying job, a stable life, travel, and love being spontaneous, but my downsides are that I just am a nice guy like yourself.
I hate to say this, and girls like to deny this, but it's true to the tee. That girls just don't realize the potential of the "nice guy" until their mid to late twenties. So, be patient, and wait it out for a bit. Work on yourself, your career, and enjoy life outside of dating like I did. After I switched my concentration from girls to school, my career, working out, friends, and church. That is the point to where I bettered myself and then when girls started to come of age. They started to flock to me more so than ever before.
So just let it go for now, cheer up, and if not getting a girl makes you suicidal. Then you really need to work on yourself. Life isn't worth giving up. If you're giving it up, because you can't live hinged to the idea of dating that specific girl or getting all the "chicks" like some guys do.0