I'm 18 and I've never had a boyfriend, I cringe every time I hear all the girls talking about their sexual experiences and their dating histories and I'm just sitting there like fuck off.
Sometimes I have those dreams where I actually have someone and I feel so loved and I finally encounter the warmth of being with another human beings and I FEEL it, I feel the touches, the kisses and the love and when I wake up, it's like life has been drained out of me.
I tend most of the time, to build this cute/tall/nice/caring character in my head and daydream about it, creating imaginary scenarios that have -2% of actually happening.
I'm so miserable, this is amazing.
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You're not alone. I was once just like you. 18, desperately in need of another human's touch, going mad over the fact that I had never dated anyone (nevertheless kissed). I always keep my focus on my books, always telling myself that once the time was right, it would happen. I know EXACTLY how you feel, and what you described doesn't even do the feeling justice. I know that this is probably the last thing you want to read, but wait. I waited and let me tell you, my first boyfriend was so worthy of the title. Had I not waited and tried to get a boyfriend just for the sake of getting one, I doubt I would've had such a great experience. Wait. Someone will come along who'll like you just as much as you like them and things will really hit it off. You'll be nervous for most of the times, since it's a bunch of "firsts" for you but it's going to be great! I know that telling other people that you've never had a boyfriend feels embarrassing, but don't make the mistake of not telling the guy. You really have to tell him! That way, it'll make things SO much easier. I made the mistake of not telling him because I was too ashamed and now, looking back at it all, I realize that if I told him, we would've had even a greater time. Wait. Don't rush because good things come to those who wait. I wish you the best! x1