I Married my high school sweetheart and never have actually dated. We divorced and it was hard for me to leave because he was all I knew and I was afraid to be alone. So I stayed in something toxic for too long.
So, after that, I have been fine and great as a single woman. But now I feel lonely after 2 years. I feel like it would be nice to have someone else in my life to share experiences and have experiences and do things with, share love with etc.
But it scares me. I don't know why aside from my above reasoning as to why I stayed in a bad relationship that I am fighting it. I worry about getting into a bad relationship again and staying.
I don't know if it's a silly fear or not. I've ended contacts with people that things didn't work out well, just talking, but it showed me I could do it if I had to.
I just worry. I had a picture of me having this full rich life on my own, and THEN a significant other. I don't have that full rich life yet. I'm still at the same job I always contemplate leaving. I am only at a crawl making friends and going out (I am a homebody but don't enjoy it).
I feel I have more work to do on myself, but am I just denying myself hapiness?
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You have outlined a good list for change. Print it out and work on what needs to be done to achieve it.
For happiness we need:
Something to do.
Something to look forward to.
Someone to love.
Someone to love us.
Just work slow with relationships and drop any bozos that come up as soon as they show their ugly faces.1