I was thinking a lot lately, about my past, my life, going on Facebook, looking at all the girls that rejected me for piece of shit guys, the friends that abandoned me for supposedly fulfilling lives, when I realized, not s single person on this earth gives a good godamn about me. I am completely alone. Personally, I want to delete my past, I want to destroy each and every memory I have, make all of my pain disappear. I am filled with so much fucking hatred it's maddening, I'd rather live in a dream and live a happy lie than live in this awful excuse for a world. All my life I've been alone, just fucking alone, I CAN'T TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE! I utterly hate this world, it's not fair that I have to be miserable every day of my fucking life while everyone else enjoys a happiness they don't even deserve. WHY DO I DESERVE TO BE MISERABLE? I LITERALLY DEVOTE HALF MY FUCKING TIME TO
MAKING EVERYONE HAPPY, I'M NOT EVEN EVIL, I CAN'T EVEN KILL A FUCKING BUG!!! I truly wish everyone else could feel my pain, not the miserable people, I basically don't care about them, I mean the happy, or naive, idiots running around thinking there's hope anf good things in this world. There is no hope in this world, no light, all there is is darkness and despair. I want them to feel the hell I've felt for 17 years. My life is total shit, I hate my memories, I hate my life, and I hate myself, I wish it was all gone. Seeing all those girls I can't ever be with, with their stupid boyfriends... I hate them so much, all the so-called jerk "friends" that abandoned me, hahaha, I despise them!! I want revenge on them, want them to know how fucked it is being me, if only for a week. But, I can't really do anything... until now. I was reading that scientists have finally discovered a way to get rid of memories. I was thinking, I couldgo and get rid of all of my memories, delete my past. Then, then I might finally have another chance at being happy, I wouldn't have to kill myself anymore! Good idea?
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I understand your feelings. You are the type of person that takes care of other people first and hopes your efforts will be repaid. It is part of the golden rule to treat others as you would like to be treated nonsense society keeps pushing people. The real world doesn't work that way.
From now on I suggest you follow these two simple rules instead of the golden rule.
Life rule number 1 is that YOU are number one. Stop spending half your time trying to make others happy. It is your responsibility to make yourself happy. If you don't look out for yourself no one will.
Life rule number 2. Treat others as they treat you. You don't need to be an asshole, but if someone won't sacrifice for you don't sacrifice for them. Be selective of who you sacrifice for.
Failure to obey these rules results in your being a doormat that the world walks on.1