Why is everyone else so fucking happy? I'm sick of seeing everyone happy and in loving fucking relationships while I'm angry, lonely, and suicidal. I am so fucking sick of seeing people in love, in stupid relationships, nothing but hormonal animals, as I see it. I've never even been loved, ever, by anyone, haha. Even when I get close, things end up being fucked up. There's this one girl I met who I really hit it off with, haha, what a fucking joke, she's just going to screw me over like everyone else did. She'll just screw me over and my life will be fucked and I'll be alone again, just like every other fucking girl did to me, God, I just want to fucking die.
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For someone to love you, first you have to love yourself.
If you don't love yourself, it won't matter how much someone loved you, you won't believe her. It will be one sided and unhealthy.
You need to accept the world but not agree with it, including people being in love while you are not. This heals bitterness so joy can take its place. If you want to be in love, you can't be bitter towards love. For instance, a guy I'm interested in is bitter towards woman. Although I've opened up to him more than any other guy, as long as he's bitter he can't trust me and a relationship cannot happen. Did I screw him over? No it was bitterness.
When you're depressed it blocks out the positive leaving the world looking like crap. Realistically, there are many positive things about life and you have to practice 'positive thinking' and seeing the good in life instead of focusing on the negative.
To make you feel better, you are not alone. There are tons of other people who feel the same. Hurt people need each other for community to relate to one another and help one another heal from situations in life to recover from depression.
If you expect girls to screw you over, you will get screwed over. If you are in a negative mind-frame, you won't see situations as they are.
Seek to have joy through every moment of life and cast away depression.
Love, be vulnerable; if a break-up happens, mourn (don't blame). Heal. Move on. Try again.
Eventually you will be surprised by an excellent mate. But you have to do the foot wo0