I work in a very competitive environment... and also a very toxic environment... where there is a lot of tension, backstabbing.. Bullying... etc. ... I used to be bullied a lot when I first arrived, and the only way I have been able to survive this is by completely shutting down, and becoming blocked off emotionally. And intimidating my intimidators. ( I am working on leaving this place.. But until I get employed somewhere else, I will be stuck here...)
Anywho.. there is a new employee who is super cool, super friendly, super nice... But I was still very closed off towards him because I noticed that when people come
In super nice, this enviornment turns them into monsters essentially..
One day he came into my space, and took some of my tools without asking. When I found him using my stuff, I started freaking out on him and yelling -- mostly to intimidate him, and to stop him from messing with/bullying me (which I thought he was trying to do..)
We eventually peaced it out a couple days later... And moved on. He didn't have any bad intentions... So i felt super Bad... And damn, I've developed quite a crush in him. We are friendly towards each other now... he's the only person I have opened up to. But he says he is scared of me... Because of what happened... (Because I freaked out so bad and I've also developed a bad reputation now --- for being aggressive towards the people who used to bully me)
Sometimes I get the sense he may like me as well... Because he'll say things like " she's SUPER cute" .. And he's always open to helping me... And talking to me. Etc... But sometimes I wonder if he's just saying that kind of stuff to get in my good graces because he's scared and doesn't want me to bite his head off...
Anyway.. I'm quite sad now.. As I feel I'll never have a chance... Because I freaked him out so bad.. How can I give him subtle hints that I am actually interested in him? And there's nothing to be afraid of? Or should I not bother?
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I would honestly forget it and try to get out of there asap because even if you both got it together they mess things up for you, if you dated someone they would try to butt into your relationship too and mess it up... this is what most people are like these days no matter where you are... i've never been in a relationship because whenever i've liked someone people messed it up and made my crushes pissed off at me for no reason at all... even when i keep myself to myself, they intetionally watch how i interact with others and then if they see it's obviously we like each other they come over, get right in the middle of us just to stop me from being happy... to them it's "If i can't be happy, you can't be happy", indeed they are monsters but their insecurities shouldn't be blameed on other people...
You are not a bad person and these people are just complete shit heads and try to find anyone to blame for their shiity life (while they pretend they are SO happy lol), they are so so fake... i've been here wherever i go, i'm always picked on people so i understand exactly how you feel, soon as you stick up for yourself suddenly your the evil person... they make you mad to then try and act innocent to make themselves look good... so i would tell the boss what is happening around work before things get out of hand, they are only responsible for how others act, not you but them... you can't just piss someone off then expect them to eventually not get angry... there is only so many times you can be prodded and poked before you just burst... don't let them feel your the problem... and let them know they are just as responsible for how others act to them... or at least tell that to the boss... If they don't anger people then all is right with the world... but they go around acting like they can walk all over whoever they like. So id forget it, tell the boss then get the hell out of there lol.0