What is wrong with me? Why do (some) people look at me with disgust?

I was bullied during my childhood, I never had any friends until high school, and I can tell you that it left some pretty damn ugly scars.

Yesterday me and my best friend went out with our group of friends, and while we were at mcdonald's waiting for them to arrive, I decided to look outside the restaurant for them, and while I was doing it, I spotted a girl looking at me. I also looked at her for, like, two seconds and looked away. And this is the part where you call me paranoid, delusional and question my intelligence: she was looking at me with disgust, with a body language that said "I will not be comfortable until you stop making eye contact with me!". I was having a really great time until this happened...

Dammit, it has been like this ever since I was a child. I can't even make eye contact with someone without the fear of being slapped in the face or downright mocked and teased. It just that all these years of bullying and teasing have left huge scars in me, and please, whatever you do, don't start with the "those years are no more" bullshit. If someone cut your arm off, you'd only feel pain then, not now, but that arm would still be missing and it would be hard for you to do things normal people can do! Don't stupidly judge someone like that, please! Sorry to be blunt, but I'm sick and tired of stupid people!

I mean, why the hell do people look at me like that? Dammit, I'm not an axe murderer! What the hell is wrong with me? How am I supposed to get a girlfriend when every single girl looks at me like this when I make eye contact with them?


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Most Helpful Guy

  • Buddy you need some help to get a better impression of yourself and others. It is evident the scars are ripping you apart.

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What Girls Said 1

  • You need help, seriously. You feel like you're being rejected even if you're not. You won't succeed in your love life if you don't put yourself out there. And by doing that you'll have to face rejection. If you want to have a girlfriend you'll have to know you're worth it and also why you're worth it. Confidence makes people attractive. I know it looks like I'm criticizing you but trust me, I'm just trying to help ;)

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What Guys Said 2

  • I have the same problem. Guess i just let it pass

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  • I look at everyone with disgust, it's nothing personal.

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