When i was 12 i was diagnosed with scoliosis and i had to wear a back brace 24/7 untill i was about 16,5/17. That moment changed me because when i was 12 i used to be a very happy girl excited towards life with a lot of friends, socializing felt normal to me. After that i could barely function, i let no one near me, i repressed my emotions, i wasn't interested in life anymore because my life existed out of hosiptals, doctors, itching skin, sleepless night, feel uncomfortable while my body was changing. I made sure no one touched me and avoided people. After it was over the ''trauma'' still effected me in many ways without me noticing i was not the same person, very anti-social and bitter towards life. I'm 22 and very very beautiful girl, i could get any guy i want (no joke) but i never been in a relationship or pursued a guy, because i feel unworthy and still like ''that girl that couldnt function'', im a virgin still. A guy called me '' lifeless'' and that hurt me so much.
Am i just making excuses or is this reasonable?
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I think it is, you were affected by something which shaped you in a different way1