Seriously, maybe that's my problem. I'm depressed, angry, insecure, arrogant, impulsive (as in I can hurt myself on an impulse), frequently suicidal, misanthropic, and go through different emotional extremes on a whim, and, on top of all of this when I'm not these things I'm emotionally flat. Maybe I'm just too screwed up to have a girlfriend. I was diagnosed with depression, but, by now, I don't even know if these issues stem from that or something else. Also, screw the iPad, seriously.
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I think it's common for people with depression to be more aware of themselves and the impact they have on people around them. Once you're aware of something it's hard to not keep noticing it, and it's almost impossible not to worry about how it looks to someone else. Usually though, they don't even realise.
What I'm trying to say is it's great that you see your own faults (a lot of people aren't able to pinpoint this stuff), but don't despair over them and let them further darken your outlook on life.
The right girl will love you all the same, and try her best to help you.3