It all started when I found out he talked to this one girl about a year ago. They were a bit flirty with their conversation. I remembered throwing all his pillows to the floor and mashed all his cups in his bedroom when I found out. Turn out I forgave him. Even since then, whenever he said something I don't like, I slap him really hard. Whenever I'm mad for no reason, I'd kick him and punch him and squeeze him very hard. I'd choke him if he's late. Sometimes I choke him to the point he cries but he still loves me. I know I sound horrible like I'm abusing my boyfriend but how do I stop now? I do it so much it's like a natural reaction to me... Sometimes he cries that's when I feel my heart aching and I know I shouldn't be hitting him like that.
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Do understand that if this was done the other way around the guy would go to jail. So you need to put a stop this immediately. Secondly it looks like jealousy (and maybe trust issues) is making you do this.
I have been in a similar situation. She was sicking jealous. And it just got worse and worse. A punch of her crushed my eye and it took over two years for it to fully heal. It is safe to say that we are no longer together.
Don't do this this to him and yourself. You did the first step by admitting there is something wrong here. I respect that. Find some professional help and take it from there before it gets any worse.0