when someone rejects me i literally do not care and just say ok when i know some girls who are literally bitter and hurt and cry over it, i just feel like life is too short to get sad about little stuff like that... i just join a cookclub or a new hobby, i just enjoy life even when im alone, im 23. Why do i barely feel? ''pain? so to say...
You are someone who decided to have a life for herself and for whom having a relationship is optional to your happiness. You have mastered life. Good job ! Far too many women just rely on their boyfriend for entertainment and life fulfillment. So much so that they try to make their boyfriend drop their hobbies so they can have their boyfriend for themselves. That's bad and never ends well.
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Well, have you endured a lot of sad things in life? Also, you seem active, and said that you take on hobbies could be that you have no time to feel anything about the situation. You don't allow yourself to feel the pain, but I don't think there's anything wrong with it.
You are either exceptionally well grounded and mature, or you are experiencing disassociation. Sometimes people who have been through emotional trauma disassociate themselves from their emotions in order to stop the pain.
Because you barely feel happy? It sounds good at first but it seems like you are trying to not let yourself get hurt, it means that it might have a drawback sometime and it hits you of nowhere. (I suck at vocabs)