Well, she's gonna fuckin date that fuck, he gets every girl he goes after, after all, what fuckin chance does a loser like me have anyway, fuck, I'm pretty sure I completely pushed her away from me. I'm fuckin pathetic. I have failed everything I've tried in my entire life, with the exception of art, which I'm just amateur at best in. It's all my fault, I don't deserve to live.
Welp. If you're dissatisfied with something, you really only have 2 options. You can either learn to accept whatever it is that is upsetting you, or you can do whatever is necessary for you to change it. Pick whichever seems most appropriate.