Well, I don't know about feeling cursed or something, however I know for sure that I am meant to be single, alone till the end. I know that I deserve love in my life, but logically speaking and understanding about myself I know that I am meant to be single, alone. I don't care about that anyways, I am fine.
Sometimes I do think that cause every girl I talk to I end up getting bored of her in no time. I feel like being with my family doesn't make me happy. I do like them being in my life, but not seeing them very often. Right now I only see them once a year and I think it's good. Maybe I'm just meant to be alone, I'll figure it out as I get older.