My boyfriend is white and one thing about him i have noticed is that he is fascinated with my skin. Not so much the color, but he rants about how smooth and soft it is. To white men out there who have dated both women of color and white women is black skin really that different?
Hey so i have dated white guys and I didn't have a very good experience... in any of them. This is annoying but you have to remember there culture has a tradition of emotionally, physically, and any kind of other abusing of people who are African descented. Its just there culture. So although we can say racism is over and whatnot the reality of is that unfortunately for us being hyper sexualized, objectified, and mistreated by them is just there culture.
I know you may love your boyfriend, but, if he is making you feel how i think he is making you feel (like an alien) than you need to at least point it out and tell him it's creepy, if you're not going to dump him. I'm slightly jaded though, because after dates of guys who really wanted to be in 'rap culture' , seemed normal but told me i couldnt be black and had to mixed (to justify there liking me), saying things like "i never thought a black girl was pretty... \but you are" and making awkward racist remarks because they were attracted to me, being the inquisitive person that I am I just sort of got over it and feel annoyed if white guys try to approach me now.
You should know you shouldn't be subjugated to any type of abuse for being yourself and kind or sweet, its just not fair to yourself.
I personally, run for the hills if a white guy likes me I dont think the majority are worth the headache...