"we broke up over a month ago (communication), it was the second time. first time it happened she called me wanting to get back together but I didn't change anything. A few months pass and we broke up again, only this time I wanted to get back together. its like we reversed rolls in the situation but when I went to talk to her after a week she didn't budge. I've been in NC for one month."
I wanted to thank you for the short time we spent together. After our last talk I didn’t get what I initially wanted, but I got just what I needed. You shined light on a side of me i’ve kep tin the dark for years, and that is more than any friend or lover has done for me in the past. These few months i’ve learned more about myself and what I want than since I moved to RIchmond, and I can’t help but think of you through it all.
No apology could express how sorry I am than I was never honest about my feelings or that I shared what it is I wanted, because I do believe we were looking for the same things. Not a day has gone by where I don’t recite all of the words I should have said, and its the price I pay for keeping quiet for so long. I took our time together for granted. My mind was elsewhere and I hope you understand why. In the end they were all excuses.
It took you turning around for me to realise all of this. I know i’m not the only one, but I feel sometimes we need to endure rejection to more deeply understand what it is we feel for someone.
I wonder how you felt the first time this happened. I wonder if you thought our reconciliation would be met with that spark bursting into a flame as I do now. I knew what I had to do, but I stalled. Instead I went and bought a ring. I went and returned it the next day for one twice as grandiose because I felt it didn’t say enough. I didn’t know at the time that no diamond could replace the words I wanted to share with you. Shortly after you asked what the purpose of it was and I said a promise ring, but never to what I was promising...
I always thought that the third time would be a charm. before we ever took that first walk together, and now with us.