My logical brain holds me back from doing bullshit
Not telling how I feel has to do with my instincts and social knowledge I earned over the years.
I start shivering when I talk to a girl that seem disinterested or don't see me as an equal and I also get nervous. When I feel a girl appreciates my presence I talk smooth and so on
When there are people I don't like my mood can't go up and when I get people who don't let me talk (which highly offends me) I go mute for a long time and try to avoid those.
I don't even talk more than some smalltak bargain with most of the people and don't give information also I keep constantly testing people and so I decide wether or not to say, I would definitely say how I feel towards the people I think are the right ones to be around
I'm not much of a teller I like to showw. But I tend not to let people into my heart and feelings because I feel weak when I do. like they can take advantage of me at any time they feel like it. It happens once relationship and family so I don't trust nobody but me to know