That night we fought, he dropped me at my house and then drove off without saying goodbye. When I called him, he started screaming at me and cursing at me. I tried to calm him down and apologized, but he said so many mean things like not wanting to marry me anymore, etc. Then he walked off for two days because he wanted space.
A couple days later, he emailed:
"I hope you are doing okay. I am really sorry that I was so angry on Saturday night. I definitely need some time to think. In the interim I want you know that I care about you deeply and I want you to be happy."
Is it worth hanging on to this? This happened more than once, where we would have a bad argument, he'd go home, and two days later, he tells me he cares about me deeply.
My parents found out about it because I would come home crying after he breaks up with me. Two days later, he makes it seem like the words he said were nothing, but they were still painful. I'm not perfect, and I admit, I have my own personal flaws, but guys would you ever tell a woman you care for so much that you don't want to marry them, would rather jump off a bridge, and two days later, say he has deep feelings for you?
I broke up with him. I loved him so much, but his anger scares me.
A lot of people act like that. He got very angry and while he was angry there's a good chance he did feel what he described to you. Then once he calmed down he felt differently. I agree that that's a tough situation to be in. I wouldn't want to deal with that either. I don't want to try and predict if your relationship is worth being in for you. Him behaving like that I believe will cause big problems with intimacy and your two's connection and statistically relationships where that kind of arguing style happens fail.