I mean, just look at me, I'm disgusting, I should've known my place, but didn't, I thought I was better than what I am, but I'm not, I truly am disgusting and lowly. She deserves something better than me, honestly. I'm nothing but some fucking black bastard, it's sickening, who would even think of touching me, I'd say it's like touching mud, but I'm mixed, so, my skin is a jaundiced yellow. I'm sorry for the hateful tone, I just hate this so much and hate my stupidity. I'm disgusting, and more than that, I'm pathetic, of course in thinking I could ever touch someone's milky skin, I was also delusional.
Most Helpful Girl
I doubt it ha anything to do with your race. We've all felt unrequited love at some point and it's painful but you will move on.
When I was 16 and 17, I used to have a huge crush on this kid. I even thought it was cute when he sneezed. Im 20 now and I barely even remember him. He wasn't a bad guy, but we weren't meant to be and he certainly wasn't worth all the time, thought, and energy I put into him.
It's ok to feel like shit about getting rejected. It happens! But I promise you will move on and it will be SO special when you find someone who likes you back.
Ever heard the saying love is a battlefield? You aren't alone in your sorrows :)0
Most Helpful Guy
Dude, I never thought I'd say this to some randomer on the internet but I'm genuinely worried about you.
I happen to be "jaundiced yellow" like you and you are the only person viewing yourself this way, well, yourself and racists. I used to wish I was whiter when I was younger but not any more, so I kind of get what you're feeling. You feel that you just don't fit in. You're a black sheep, so to speak.
Honestly, nowadays, nobody cares about skin colour. Just as long as you're a nice person. Work on getting yourself better and I promise that white girls and even non-white girls alike will take more notice of you.
First and foremost, you need to sort out the racism. Yes, you are a racist. You believe that you are inherently inferior because of your race and that white girls are superior and therefore out of your league and you're wrong. I've talked to you before and you seem quite smart. You're not stupid.
The only thing pathetic and stupid about you is your racism.0