my story is he fall for me first he proposed I refused him first for religion issues, then he kept trying so I told him My grandma is Asian since I know Asian girls is deal breaker for him. I didn't want him to fall so hard for me.
After 5 years I regert I think of him & how stupid I'm... I never seen like him... I try to look for him in every guy I met
i still check his FB, he is old fashioned guy, I keep rember funny moments we had. He was white handsome & kind all my friends said I was lucky but I put religion first
There are a lot of guys out there for you. You just became infatuated with him before you even got to know him, and it may partly be because he showed so much interest in you. You have to think hard about what's important to you and factor that into the men you pursue now in order to avoid having something like this happen again. Once you meet someone else who you start to care about, you will see the old pains and longing will fade.
You cannot forget someone who touched your heart and you should not forget them. Learn all that you can from the experience. After 5 years, your refusal to let go of him is a huge problem. You may need professional counselling.