Hmm do I look alright? Hope she likes this cologne. Just be yourself, you'll be alright *splashes water on face* alright lets do this! What the fuck are my curls doing /=? ( story of my life right there lol when my hair is longer ) O god what is that one crazy hair doing? Don't be nervous, hope I have a good time.
Stuff like that lol, though I admit sometimes my mind is just like a blank slate which is at times more nerve wracking then when there's tons of things flying through it.
- Does my hair look good? - Is my breath okay? Do I need a mint? Maybe I should go brush my teeth for the hundredth time... - If we kiss, will I be good at it? Shit, I don't know how to kiss! Goddamnit! - I'm gonna ramble. I'm gonna ramble and he's gonna think I'm weird. - Will he be nervous as well? Nah. He's too cool for that. Omg, why did I agree to basically make a fool of myself? - Welp, my outfit is shit. Time to change again. - OMFG. HE'S HERE!
Good date: Oh Jesus! I hope he likes me!( usually they do, what can I say I'm the 💩) Damn he's fine AF, I wanna see what those soup cooler's can do😈 Plzzzzz don't be a fuck boy! please don't be a fb, please don't be a fb! Act calm afro, act calm... F that! lay all your weirdness all out on the table. I think I should Vulcan Salute him😕 Hmmm I wonder if he's gonna finish that? I hope I look pretty😨 😔what if I scare him away? Don't get corny now afro...
Bad date: Do you have to breathe... EVERY... breathe? I could poison this mf... Righttt... Now! For the love of MARY! *Sean Connery voice* I hope I get the run's😑 Whyyyy did I agree to this? Bruhhhhh really though? Omggg I'm about to tell him I was born a man or gay! This is ridiculous!
"i really hope this goes well. i hope my outfit is okay. i wonder if my eye makeup is still on point *checks in phone screen* yep all good. okay... just go in... be yourself... smile... it's gonna b fine."
When I first started dating, I used to get SO nervous... The whole morning my stomach would be in knots. I would do nothing all day and just try to chill out so I wouldn't psych myself out. On the way to the date, my tongue itched super badly (lol) and my stomach would upset. I had thoughts like, "why did I put myself through this, wtf was I thinking, I should cancel, I'd rather be at home listening to music, etc" but then once I met them it all would go away and you would never guess I was ever nervous.
Now, since I've met so many different dudes, I don't get nervous or even feel hopeful. I'm kinda in a crappy mindset and I have low hopes and lower expectations, but high standards I guess. my thoughts on the way to the date are kinda negative... I wish I wasn't this way. But now I know how to play the game anyways 💁