My boyfriend is very sweet, loving and generous. He never talks about other women and constantly says I'm the most perfect one for him while I constantly talk about other men. He always replies while I don't. He flirts with me while I talk to him like a friend. Once, I even blocked him to see his reaction. I was so horrible to him to the fact he couldn't work at all, begged me to stay when I threatened to break up and even cried over me. The relationship was turbulent, leading to me nearly breaking up with him 7 times for various reasons. But the thing is, HE always takes me back quickly. He never says "this is the last chance" or the equivalent.
He's crazy, no one can put up with this sort of shit!
All of this insecure mind game bullshit you are doing. Stop it immediately before you lose the best possible thing to ever happen to you. You are acting like an insecure, needy, psycho B. I am not saying that you necessarily are one, but you are behaving like one.
The guy is with you because he cares about you, that should be enough proof for you to realize he wants you. If you can't be with him without fucking with his head, then yeah, you don't deserve him. Shape up before he ships out.
What's the issue exactly? It seems you're testing him to ascertain if he will stay. Experience of rejection in the past from a formative relationship? Of course, I may be putting 2 + 2 together and getting 5. But if you don't actually like him, then don't string him along. If you do, then you need to communicate better, particularly about your insecurities.
Well you are boyfriends and girlfriends, as well as he does put you in first place, well unless you don't really like the guy i would say don't give him too much pressure because there will come a point where the guy will break (mentally) and i'm sure you wouldn't want to do that.
To the point, he's a seems like a decent guy, but you have to make up your mind whether or you want him in your life more or less or not at all and not play around.
You sound familiar... yes like my ex... I am sure he truly loves you (and he does) becz i know what it feels like when you care about someone and they dont give a shit about you... that feeling is awful;and i would pray to god that no one in the world gets that feeling... but sadly people like you dont understand that (no offence).
7 times ssly? To me this same kind of shit happend only 2 times and i just could'nt handle the pain of getting used... and i am still feeling so low becz i got blown away just like that (there was my fault too... but this isn't about me)
I suggest you start to value the efforts he makes to make you happy or stay with you... becz remember when he starts to go away he will never come back in your life... and you will feel way more guilty and full of regrets than you do now.
Remember once you hurt a person deeply, you stop existing for em.