Should I tell my boyfriend I cheated when we were in highschool?

I started dating my boyfriend when I was 14, the summer going into my freshman year. Throughout the first year we dated I kissed a couple other guys and gave one a HJ, I on and off flirted with this guy during the first year of my relationship. I know I was young, and stupid and immature. As I grew up I learned to forgive myself because I was so young. Ok well here we are 5 years later, I'm a sophomore in college and have terrible anxiety and depression because my dad has cancer and I just lost my grandfather. Now I feel like a terrible person and I serious hate myself for what I've done. My mom says not to say anything because I was young and had no idea what what a real commitment was. But as our relationship gets stronger and stronger I don't know how to forgive myself again. What if I get married to him but my relationship is just based off of a huge lie? I'm sorry if this sounds crazy but my anxiety is just really bugging me and I can't stop ruminating about this. My therapist says as time goes on I will learn to live with it because right now it's just an obsession related to my anxiety and depression. I just need further opinions, please be nice to me, I don't like myself as much as it is.


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Most Helpful Guy

  • I'm honestly not sure that you should. I think that there's a lot more to be lost here than gained. It's clear that your boyfriend means a lot to you. Maybe I'm just being pessimistic, but I don't see much good coming from this, if any at all.

    Has this depression and anxiety been caused by the guilt from what you did? If so, I think what you need is not so much therapy, but FORGIVENESS. I'm not sure what others have told you, but more than "let it go, you were young", I think you need someone to look you in the eye and say "I forgive you."

    I say this because when I'm stung by remorse for things that I've said or done, I go to Confession, do my penance, and then I feel better. I go forward with the confidence that I don't need to carry that guilt with me anymore. I can quite literally start over.

    Like I said, it seems like most others are just saying "forget about it already." You need someone to forgive you. I think that will be the greatest help to you. It needs to be someone other than your boyfriend though. I don't know him, but I just think there's too much to risk if you tell him.

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Most Helpful Girl

  • Normally I would say to just forget about it because it was a long time in the past and you're a totally different person now, and agree with your mom that there's no point in bringing up something hurtful from like 5 years ago. But it sounds like it really is eating away at you. If it hurts you this much to keep it from him, I think at least for your own peace of mind you should tell him. It might hurt him, and he might feel like that's enough to break up with you, just be aware of what the consequences are, and be prepared to deal with them.

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    • Should I not tell him if I can get over it?

    • Like I said, I think telling him is for your own peace of mind but I don't necessarily think that it's a good idea for him or your relationship. Yes he "deserves to know" but he deserved to know when it happened so he could make a decision then, not now, 5 years later that will just shake the foundation of the relationship.

What Guys Said 13

  • Yes, you should tell him, it's always better to be honest and truthful. However be prepared for the consequences thereafter.

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  • i think you should, but word it carefully. explain it like you did here, say you didn't know any better and everything.

    because the fact is, you did cheat on him. I would want to know.

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  • No. No good comes from confessing. If you need to talk about it, find a good therapist.

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  • It's better that he hears it now then finding out from someone else or another way. I know this from personal experience, it was bittersweet to hear my ex cheated on me with multiple guys from her own best friend

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    • He's not gonna figure out from anyone else

  • you probably shouldn't tell him but if you feel you must then do it.

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  • you should, the sooner the better.

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  • Ignorance is bliss. You shouldn't tell him.

    Coincidentally this is also the exact reason why I have trust issues and will never have a monogamous relationship.

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  • If you can't handle it, you'll have to tell him. But...

    Make no mistake, you're telling him for you, not for him. It will make his life worse. It will make your life, perhaps, better, because you get to dump your guilt, apologize, hope he 'forgives' you and you get to feel better.

    If you've learned your lesson, feel bad about it, will never do something like that again... and he's not going to find out... if you can keep it to yourself, then -that's- your punishment. And carrying it is how you earn forgiveness.

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What Girls Said 8

  • As Wise as I an ol Owl that I think that I am here, dear, Listen to Mom who Knows Best from ther Rest and along with your doctor who is Right with your own Fright...
    If you go Barking up the wrong Tree with Thee Now, you will Be more than crying yourself to Mommy Dearest and Doctor Dolittle... You will find yourself in the dog house, Alone at Home.
    Silenc eis Golden.. Relax, Let the Evil Guilt Trip be on its Merry Way and Today... Forgive yourself; I commend you for Holding it together and Being as strong as you have Been, my Friend.
    Good luck and My blessings. xx

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  • If you're in a great relationship now then live with the guilt and learn to forgive yourself, because all though cheating is not the answer in any situation there is no "good" part in this, you're only going to hurt him if you two are in a great place, yes you were young but never ever do it again.

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  • hey, don't beat yourself up too bad. if you did all of this as a teen and promise to never let it happen again as long as your an adult... I say keep it to yourself... look nothing good will come out of telling him. If you stay loyal from here on out u guys will be fine... best wishes love!!

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  • I am sorry about your dad I was in that boat 6 years ago but you should tell him so he has the option to dump you because he should have that right

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    • She was a child... Please. It's not that serious

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    • no I just make sure they realize what they did was wrong and can't excuse themselves by saying it happened years ago or I was young. It is all equally as bad. Wouldn't have been as bad if it was just a kiss but you gave a hand job.

    • I know I was wrong... I hate myself for it. You don't need to tell me that.

  • Oh come on. You was a kid. Never do it again and leave it be. Do you really want years of trust issues and problems over something you did as a child? You're fine.

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