okay so when I don't see my "special friend" I cry and want to throw up! I know I'm attached to that guy but I don't know what to do... I think I really like him he makes me feel like no others can make me feel... What should I do?
You might want to come out of that pool of emotions and grab a frickin towel, what is "special friend"? A friend with benefits? a best friend? its not that serious... thats insecurity to the max... you need someone to make you feel like you... get out of that pool hon... and keep a smile on, you can meet your friend any time.
it sounds like your love sick which does happen believe it or not. but its normal and will pass you just have to learn to focus on other things. i mean if he was not your "special freind" i dont think there would be anything happening period.
Try and tell him how you feel. If he dosent listen or dosent feel the same way then it's ok! It's not gonna be the end of the world! There's lots of other people that will make you feel the same way but give you the respect you deserve