She knew I was interested in her----we texted, teased each other, and eventually I started to ask her to do things. We knew each other for a few months and it was at the end of these months that I began to escalate because I realized I had feelings for her. Therefore, from my actions, along with my flirty touching, she knew I was interested in her. But then she started to make excuses to hang out and not work with me in finding an open day, so I "put the ball in her court" and then dropped contact to see if she'd text me ever.
It's been an excruciating four months. Nothing from her and it was extremely difficult at first but I got through it----for the most part. Memories of her and our old conversations keep flickering whenever I check my phone. Obviously, nothing from here.
You have to understand the kind of person I am right now: I'm very isolated because I used to be very shy. I have two friends that I still keep in contact with. When she met me, it was my outgoing side that came out since I've been working on my shyness.
And I want to continue working on that, but the problem is that my circumstances are making it difficult to connect with other girls to get over her. As incredible as it sounds, I have only spoken to one girl in the last four months (since I last saw her) and only 4 or 5 people total outside my family. I don't see this changing for the foreseeable future---meaning the next year and a half or so. So my isolation plays a lot into my yearnings.
I had game enough, though, to know that girls hate clingy/desperate people, so I knew how to play it cool and escalate when necessary.
It saddens me so much that she doesn't text anymore. She has a strong social network so I'm sure she had no problem forgetting me. In August, she'll be moving out of the state to a new college. I'm sure she'll meet some guy there and live happily ever after with no thought of me. That is, if she hasn't already met a guy at the bars/clubs she goes.
There was no closure. The last texts we sent were teasing...something we were escalating, it seemed, every chance we got. This is so hard for me to deal with because all the residual feelings keep coming back when I'm just on the verge of forgetting her.
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It seems like what you need is closure. She's obviously not going to text you first; some girls are like that. Believe it or not, there are still a few girls left out there who want the guy to make the move. Maybe she figured you weren't into her anymore? I don't know, but you sound like you need closure, so call her. Calling is better than texting, by the way. You can hear a person's tone of voice in a call, that you can't hear in a text. You get the emotion and feelings behind the words. So just call her!0