I am 22 I have been in 3 relationships the first one played with my head the second tried to get me on drugs and the 3rd I found out cheated on me on my birthday. I am not pretty i am average. I am weird and I want to change I can't let my guard down I don't trust any one and I am so scared I will always be alone what should I do? I don't want any thing from them I enjoy life I just want someone who like me for me why is that so hard?
Because that 'like me for me' bit is a fantasy. Currently you are at a crisis phase. (Which is a good thing by the way) It's telling you that YOU NEED TO CHANGE the situation you are in and it is totally possible. Ask yourself these questions; 1. Where do I see myself 10 years from now? 2. Do I see myself married? 3. Will I have kids? 4. Will I be working for someone or have my own company? 5. How should I begin? 6. How to forgive MYSELF for feeling this way?
I'll answer number 6 for you; EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES, what separates you from being happy or depressed for the rest of your life is having the courage to admit you've made mistakes and it's time to forgive yourself and move on.
An for the sake of it, I'll answer part of Number 5 as well; Once you know what/where you want to be 10 years from now since you got the INTERNET research what you need to do to achieve that goal. Don't just sit around feeling bad for yourself, get off your pretty little ass and do what you've always wanted to do. ;)
Don't worry when the world ends we'll all die together😲lol jkkkkk but really tho I'm in the same situation I'm really weird and quirky, I lost most of my friends just last week because they're embarrassed to be seen with me. I'm also single😉 Except I don't want to change myself. My advice is work on your self esteem and confidence, eventually you'll meet someone that'll like you😊
you have to approach the nice guys and show and tell them what you want and not go for player bad-boy jerks, and dont always expect the guy to do everything cause thats usually what gets girls into being played.