i see them as disposable. My mom left my dad when I was 10 for her own selfish reasons. She was also never there for me. Whenever I got very sick she would hit me or get mad at me. Her lack of care when things got "bad" hurt me. She would just ignore me when she couldn't deal with things. She refused any "emotional connection" with me. So I see love as walking away now. Whenever things get real or powerful
just curious if you've researched narcissism. your mom sounds like she's disordered... very disordered. This would also likely affect your relationships as an adult (the intimate ones especially). The silent treatment, lack of emotional connection stuff you describe is among if not the worst type of child abuse in my opinion... it also would tend to make you (as a child) associate such behavior WITH love... thus you might be rejecting real relationships as they are so alien to you and subconsciously seeking to be mistreated-the very thing you DO know about "Love". Just a thought... I relate.
That's not love, that's running from love. Not being able to handle love isn't love. That's like saying running from the gym is working out. (Not running literally... Because that could be working out.)
I see them as unreachable. No girl was ever interested in me, I never had as much as a kiss, and probably never will
This is a huge reason relationships don't last and men are killing themselves in record numbers. It's not that you think of relationships as disposable, you consider men disposable. You have no respect for your fellow human and you only think of yourself.
Because of people like you I self mutilate so that the pain I feel emotionally makes sense.