i have depression and i oversleep so i dont have to face my depression, i also have an eating disorder and i self harm, i can't talk about any of this to my boyfriend because he won't understand, some days i feel like i can't move i dont wanna get out of my room i hate seeing people, i dont text my boyfriend sometimes because im just so sad, i always say im sorry and tell him im sleeping, which i actually am but then i realised he shouldn't be with me, hed probably think im some freak, so I've kept pushing him away telling him to find someone else and that its better that way, and he's accusing me of meeting other guys and talking to other guys when all i really do is sleep and cry, it hurt me so much that he would think that i would do that, this is what i mean when i say he won't understand me, he basically called me a slag but I've not done anything wrong, im going through so much as it is i dont need him acusing me of stupid things, what should i do?
Most Helpful Girl
If he is with you, he is with you for a reason. You should never feel like you are a negative to him or that you need to push him away. Instead, you should open up to him about what is really going on. Even if you don't want to talk about it in depth, at least tell him the truth. He chose you cause he likes you, and that includes all of you. Most likely once he finds out what you've been going through, he will want to be supportive for you. Also, you should try talking to someone like a councilor at school or some other resource that can help support you and get you into a better place. Above all remember these things: You are not a freak, everyone has to go through things at times, and for you those things are just a bit harder than some other people. That makes you strong for going through it, not weak or freaky. And second if he leaves you because of it, then he isn't the type of guy you want to be with. You deserve a boyfriend who is willing to work for your relationship and be supportive of you. If he is just in it because it is easy, then he never deserved you in the first place.1