Back when I was 15 or 16 years old I was able to convince this one girl I had crushed on since 6th grade to hang out together with me at the mall and then Great America. Nothing ever came of this, and I was totally in the friend zone even though I did not recognize it at the time. But nevertheless, I still saved the receipt from the restaurant we ate at, preserved carefully in my journal, and never threw away the shirt I wore even though it is old and worn out now.
Sometimes when I am sad, and I see that girl's life unfolding on Facebook, far away without me and with her new boyfriend, I break out those two objects and just remember those few good times I had with her. She will always be the one who got away, my first heartbreak friend zone coming-of-age experience.
As petty and insignificant as those events were, they were still the absolute greatest days of my life, and I enjoy having a physical object to remember them by -- something that was there, something that she herself touched...
Is this weird? In light of how sad I get thinking about it sometimes, would it be healthier if I got rid of these two objects?
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No, lots of people keep things from their childhood/high school years. I haven't saved anything from high school crushes but to me it sounds like you just really want to get into the dating world and that's the closest you've gotten so you're holding onto it. I fell in love and there's no way I'm getting rid of my pictures of him even though he moved. Every time I'm sad I look at them and smile but this seems to be having the opposite effect on you so maybe you should get rid of them0