I'm a 24 year old girl and never been in a relationship. I've always avoided this because I thought it would be useless for me, especially knowing that most people are just wasting their time and pretend to love each other. Right now I'm at a stage wear I would want to have someone in my life, someone I'd would love forever.
But I got zero power of attraction! Like not even a pair of eyes would turn in my direction. It's as if I don't even exist! I've been depressed since I've hit puberty and hated myself since being a toddler.
So don't tell me to get self-esteem or confidence because it never existed in me. I won't pretend that my life is awesome and lie to myself saying that I'm pretty or anything. I can tell I'm not too ugly even tho I tell my self otherwise and I have a personality that a lot of people appreciate. A lot of coworkers and friends (obviously) and even people on the internet really like to talk to me, laugh with me. They also immediately feel that I'm trustworthy enough to tell me about their personal issues. But what they don't know is that I deeply hate myself and want to die. My friends always ask me if I've met someone yet. I get embarrassed... I always tell them no not this time with a fake smile. I suffer from it. I feel so alone. Yet, it seems so easy for them to have someone.
I know a lot of guys like who I am but that's just it. It's like I got a personality that guys want for friends and not for love. I'm just a ''Bro'' for them. So now I'm just trying to figure out a way to survive alone without love and I'll try to accept my life this way while probably wishing to not live for more than two years. The only look of interest I got were creepy good looking guys staring at me the wrong way. :(
Most Helpful Guy
your problem is simple its something that a lot of girls suffer from , you're waiting... waiting for a great, good looking guy to find you and dont get me wrong nothing is wrong about that, but guys are... how do i put this... if you dont show him you're interested he will not be, you can be the hottest girl in the world but as long as you're not eyeing guys, smiling at them and making them feel that you want them to approach you it will not happen, you need to check a guy out, eye him from a far, hold eye contact and smile, act like you want to get approached, if you wait and do nothing it will not happen you gotta invest in, even if its as little as eyeing a guy and smiling.2
Most Helpful Girl
Maybe you just didn't see their eyes because when you passed, they were on your ass or something.1