I am in my early twenties, and I was in a five year relationship with my ONLY boyfriend. It ended several times within the five years, he was abusive and he cheated on me with my best friend, and THEN was involved in a paternity case. Yes, it was pretty terrible. I kept going back because I thought he'd grow up, or that that was the best that I could get, but I finally left him a while back ago.
I've tried to put myself out there and go after guys I find interesting, but something is wrong with me. Any time that I know that the guy has reciprocated interest, I suddenly feel like that's where I should end the so-called relationship. I get freaked out and I begin to over-think everything that I know about them.
I finally have a guy that I have been talking to that seems pretty great, and I do like him. I just have this gut-wrenching anxiety that we won't work. I have discussed with him about my standards, and he claims that he completely understands, but I am so afraid that he lied.
He is taking me out sometime this week on our first 'date' and I feel physically sick. It isn't the butterflies, it's fear.
I don't want to let this one go, because this may be a good guy.
How do I fix this? I don't know what to do.
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You are not broken, just damaged. You are suffering from psychological trauma caused by your prior abusive relationship. Seek out help to begin the healing process. Good luck. :)0