Okay, so I've accepted it; I get a little crazy. My temper is insane and I literately become a beast when it gets unleashed. There is a peak of such extreme rage that I am totally careless and only focused on the target in mind; it's crazy. If I'm not tearing something apart then I'm plotting some devious, terribly treacherous little plan to humiliate and sabotage whoever has pissed me off. If I get in a fight, I'm not leaving until that bitch's face is leaking with blood. I just get so angry! It's like I'm not even me anymore. I would compare it to Hulk!
I just destroyed two doors, ruined my dad's filing and kicked a huge trash bin along with a lamp he broke right in the part of the garage that he drives in because he pissed me off. We had plans to go run groceries and go to the store. I was dressed and ready to go, waiting for him for at least fifteen minutes. He mentions the kitchen being a mess. Me, being my outspoken self, point out the disgusting stained counter that HE CREATED and tell him it's not fair for him to be so hard on me when he has left messes around too. After that he says, "I'm gonna go run my errands, I'll pick you up later for the store." This infuriated me. He's always f***ing acting like I can just sit around and wait for his overemotional ass to decide what he wants to do and I god damn can't. I am 20; I have a life and plans of my own! We've had that discussion before. So...
Me: "I've waited around for you ready to go for 15 minutes. I'm getting in that truck."
Him: "No, you're not."
Me: "Yes, I am. Don't be so self absorbed. I can't wait around for your ass all day. You're being passive aggressive and making an emotional decision"
He wasn't ready for my over-aggressiveness to challenge his passive aggressiveness.
Him: "You're not going."
Me: "If I don't get in your car right now then I'm not going anywhere else with you at all today except for when you take me to work. You cannot just inconvenience me because you are too emotional for a grown man!"
He got in his truck and drove off while I was talking to him. So I kicked over a huge trash been and smashed a lamp that he already broke in a previous fight right in his way when he drives in. Hope it f***s up his tires. Then I proceeded to kick in the basement door, knocking off the vertical frame completely and throwing the horizontal frame off track. Then I went in his room, picked up a box of files, and threw them against the wall.
I'm crazy. My temper is awful. I do feel guilt, but he f***ing deserved it. He wanted to pull an a**hole move; I pulled a few more and if he keeps f***ing with me, I'll make sure his ex wife never wants him again.
This crazy side never comes out though! How is it going to effect me in the dating world?
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All I can tell you is that it will have a negative effect if your boyfriend saw you this way. Have you seen a counselor or anything like that?1