Hi...I am a 20, going on 21, years old girl. And a virgin. Never been intimate with a guy, never had a boyfriend.
I have BIG self esteem issues. I cover them up every day with nice clothes, makeup and a smile. Still hate myself every time I look into a mirror. And I ask myself..why would any guy want to date a girl with glasses and crooked teeth? When there is so many gorgeous girls out there?
And then something happened. I met a guy online, then we met in person. My god, I liked him A LOT. And guess what? He seemed to like me back! He invited me on a second and then on a third date. I felt like desired and cared for. I felt good for the first time in so many years of self hatred. And then he stopped talking to me. I don´t know why, but he just went dead silent. I am a proud person, so I wrote him only once, he wrote me a very short message and then went silent again. Now I hate myself even more than I ever did before. He broke my heart and we didn´t even date. How pathetic is that?
I am starting to prepare myself for life without love. When my parents die, I am going to be completaly alone. Yes, I will have my friends, but they will have their own families, their own lives. It will not be the same. Maybe you think I am crazy...but I am not going to look any better..these are my best years. And if I am not interesting to men now, 10 years later it is not going to get better. I do not think that my personality is the problem. I have a bunch of friends, I get along very easily with people. I am an extrovert, I love going out, having fun, meeting new people. I was told that I am funny and caring. So it must be the looks...Pic on my profile..at least I hope I will be able to upload it...getting some xpert level sh_t on this site all the time...
But in this world so concentrated on perfection, crooked teeth (not to be seen in the picture) and glasses might be a problem. Do not tell me to get braces, for various reasons I cant. If I could I would have got them a long time ago. I am stuck with the way I look, I have done everything to make myself as pretty as possible.
I am depressed. I think I am going to buy a cat...
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You are gorgeous. Everyone has self-doubt, nerves, and are self-conscious. You might not be able to see it-- but, again... you are stunning. I'm serious. A lot of girls want what you have; absolutely beautiful eyes (both shape and color), great eygreat lips, great nose, great cheekbones.
I understand where you're coming from, though... I am the same way. It is difficult to think any different. It might never go away, you might feel the same forever, but remember to smile. None of us will ever reach perfection. Go through life with your head up. There is always someone who finds you attractive, even if they are too nervous/don't get a chance to mention it.
By the way, I like crooked teeth. They add character. Check out Bunny/Grav3yardgirl on Youtube: link She has large, crooked teeth... and was teased about them, but grew to like them and chose not to have them straightened. I can't remember what video she was talking about it (maybe her Imperfections one?), but she said, as a kid, she liked her "wonky teeth" because some of her favorite characters and people had them.2