ok so I stopped seeing someone I really liked like few days ago, he broke my heart, lets call me (A).
so that was hurt but I know we cannot no longer get back together, and actually it was kinda relief for me.
after that I signed up on online dating app, I don't know why I was doing this but yea, I got a date yesterday.
I m one of the shy girl who cannot be open with somebody straightaway and this guy was trying to make me feel more comfortable around him. lets call him (B).
but the thing is, throughout the date I was thinking sth else like the guy who broke my heart (A), I recalled the first time we went out and such.
throughout the date, he (B) was always trying to hug me, put his arm on my waist, and when we were walking down the escalator he kissed on my cheek.
at the end we sit in a park, he kissed me like over an hour, I like being kissed but the point is, I wasn't fully enjoying the kissing part, first I couldn't breath (maybe the position?), second his beard was hurting me. the MAIN MAIN point was, I was still thinking kissing (A), the guy who broke my heart.
and he (B) asked me to kiss and hug him, I hesitated Because I wasn't sure if I have such strong feeling about him at the moment.
so what sorta of thing you would find on yourself and you know you are ready to see someone else?
Lets call (him) (A),
we can no longer get back together