A few weeks ago, I logged onto my OKCupid profile as I'd not been on it for a while. I'd had about 10 visitors to my profile, so I scanned down the little pics to see if anyone caught my eye. I thought one guy looked cute so I clicked on his profile for a nosy. Then, when I saw the larger photos I realized that I work with him... I immediately clicked off his profile, embarrassed. Then, I logged off and went in again under another, anonymous, identity so I could have a proper look without him knowing it was me. But, of course he'd have seen that I'd visited his profile.
I didn't see him at all for weeks as he was on Christmas holidays. But he started back this week. I went into the kitchen today to heat up my soup. And he came in shortly after. My soup was in the microwave and I realized I didn't have a spoon. Getting one was going to involve walking past him. So, I took a deep breath and rounded the corner.
He turned round as I approached and I went, "Hi! How's it going?!" in an awkward and excessively chirpy manner. He just looked at me as if I'd caught him doing something he shouldn't be and went "Hi" in a flat sort of voice. It was so embarrassing. I felt like my legs were made of jello, yanked the drawer open, grabbed a spoon and Marched off back to the microwaves. I had lunch with some other co-workers and he went back to his desk.
So, that was embarrassing. I'm just glad that I didn't answer too many of the sex questions on OKCupid. He answered more of them, and more specific ones. So, I know that he loves giving oral. More awkwardness, great.
I really wish that I'd just messaged him on the site and jokingly said something along the lines of "Hi, imagine seeing you here!" then maybe it wouldn't have been so embarrassing at work? A couple of my friends have said "Why aren't you going to pursue it?" and well, aside from the obvious embarrassment and awkwardness work relationships aren't always a good idea. I mean, there's several couples at work and it's not frowned upon at all, but ugh. He's kinda cute, and funny but I hadn't even thought of him in that way before. Now I'm thinking of him all the time and wondering. And I don't even know if he likes me. I mean, he looked at my profile, but that doesn't mean anything. We had a high compatibility percentage (over 85%) but he must have not known it was me when he clicked on it. And although I'm funny and not unattractive I'm so dorky and awkward around guys, he could be thinking, "OMG, why did I click on her profile?! She's awful! And now she'll think I like her!"
He deleted his profile a few days ago. So maybe he's even dating someone. Who knows.
I was even thinking maybe I should email him at work, but maybe not. Sigh.
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You know I would just approach it like something funny, just to get the awkwardness away. Like just hey I saw you had a OKcupid account, I do to, how has it worked out for you? Use it as something in common, like stumbling upon it and wanting to know if it's has been a good experience not like a hook up thing. You might get a more relaxed opinion. If he has a girlfriend then maybe I was on it till I met someone.or I noticed you had one as well.0
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