You shouldn't have to go through all that. you are suffering the consequences of would sounds like a family history of emotional issues. You may be dysfunctional but it doesn't sound like you have any reference point for healthy...
Step 1: find a relational counselor you like and gets your situation and start talking and working through the issues/emotions. sorry, that is gonna cost money. churches sometimes offer it at no cost. I know you said you reject her church, but no wonder.
Step 2 Read the book change your life in 7 days to help boost self esteem, identify your values. do other things that make you feel good that are healthy: eat right, exercise, etc..
Step 3: try to get your mom into it as well.
Please do not get into a relationship with a dude at this point... keep them away for now...
Do you have any support structure... aunts, friends, anything that you'd definte as a healthy. like someone you can talk openly to and they don't judge you? I'm not suggesting you dump all of this on them, but just that you have some healthy relationships. There is no good reason for all of this.
This stuff goes deep into your family and you are not the source of the problem. No mom should ever say to you what she is saying to you. But she's acting out of her frustation, wounds , etc..
Let me know if anything else I can do for you... good grief!
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This sounds like a toxic relationship, that goes around in circles. Clearly her mom did this to her, and now she does it to you.
I would just be honest, try and sit down and talk without yelling or blowing up. If she starts to yell, you calmly say " mom, I'm not yelling at you, will you please stop yelling and just talk". My mom is 1st generation Sicilian, and boy do they get mad, but I just try not to get mad too.
One person yelling is bad enough, two people yelling, and no one gets their point across. Sometimes you have to be the bigger person, even if it's an authority figure your up against.
But don't let your relationship be ruined, a mother is irreplaceable.
I know it isn't the best thing in the world, but parents sometimes say bullshit to you, but can still love you. I think she might have said it once and then eventually gotten used to being able to say it because of how well you seem to brush it off and how often she probably says it. Im sure she doesn't wish that upon you, but she is speaking out of anger, and so are you. You know you have a mouth, so where do you think you got it from? I don't know how you can do it, but I encourage ypubro try to build a better realtionship with your mom. She is the one who brought you into the world and as much as you hate to admit it, you will always need her to comfort and love you and be there for you, even if your relationship sucks as it is now.
Stay close to grandma leave your mom alone! She will drain you, and your whole life would be based around you trying to make your mother happy especially to you! You can't make someone do anything.. distance makes the heart grow fonder. Maybe once you take away paying her phone bill she will know how you are NOT USELESS and dysfunctional.. just cut her off. It'll be hard but don't show any weakness with her. You don't have to talk back but grow a back bone and go live YOUR life.
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This is a very unhealthy relationship you have with your mother. I think you should stop keeping any contact with your mom.
Why do you think you have low self esteem? no, I don't think so, because if you had low self esteem you will be fearful towards your mom given the way she is treating you, you will be scared and will keep quiet when she tells you disrespectful things, but you are not doing that.
You have the courage to stand up to her, you have the courage to defend and even speak back to her in her own language. A person with low self esteem cannot do that, so no you don't have low self esteem.
However you need to leave that house, this relationship is very unhealthy and it can affect you in negative ways if you choose to keep talking with your mom.Sounds like she may be taking agression out on yku about some of the choices she made in life of choices your grandma has made. Usually people take things out on the people they trust and love the most. My brother does that all the time. If its possible, you should try to have a heart to heart talk with her to see what is bothering her. Once things cool off and the timing is good. Also helps to keep a level head during it, for there may be a brief moment the talk may get heated, because of miscommunication.
No mother should say, has a right to say that to her child. I disconnected from my mom for the same reasons. She was not at my wedding for those reasons, and she will never see her grandchildren for those reasons. If she dies tomorrow i will not pay for her burial the state can handle that.
Just stop associating with her,
She isn't worth your timeShe helps you out? With what?
Why don't you completely cut off contact?pray to god for help. thats the only help i know... .
Your mom took it too far in my opinion.
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