Doesn't really matter now you have it, you've spent your money, you have a hole, what's done is done. It can still heal though.
I don't find any piercings attractive at all, and yours just sounds repulsive to me. I'm not being nasty though, I'm just telling you how it is.
Sorry I couldn't be more positive. End of the day, its how you feel about it, not mine or anyone else. It's not like everyone else on this earth bases what they wear around what other people do in order to look cool.