This is going to sound like I'm bragging, but I just want to emphasize a point. When I measure myself, I have conventionally great proportions (36-24-36, nice boobs, 125-135 pounds depending on the time of the year). Actual people in the industry (not those fake people that come up to you in the mall) have asked me to model for them but ultimately cannot because of my height (5'4"). They say I have beautiful exotic facial features. Everyone swoons over my hair. But when I look in the mirror, I see ugliness.
I just see a HUGELY fat girl, out of shape, bumpy nose, ugly feet, sunken in small eyes, ugly feet, man hands, horrible skin, comically short legs (my legs are 2-3 inches shorter than the average length of someone my height but they look about 5 inches shorter to me), sagging breasts, etc. I just hate the way I look so much, but everyone else seems to think I'm this model type perfect girl.
I read about body dysmorphic disorder in which you see a person that is not actually you in the mirror. Because of how I look, I'm afraid of singing in public (something I used to love to do), put out my artwork, or speak in large groups of strangers. It kills me because I want to share my talents with the world like other people who know how to sing, play instruments, do sports, etc. But I just want to be hidden, and I'm afraid everyone would basically "boo" me off stage because of how I look, despite the constant compliments I hear from people. Is there something wrong with me?
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I get you. I get how you feel, and I've been there before, sort of still am. I want to help you because you seem like a great person and nothing, especially not your opinion of your body, should hold you back from what you love. So those are known as really great proportions, so congrats! Most girls would kill for what you have! What I"m guessing the problem is however is that you are so used to seeing all those stick-thin girls in magazines, on tumblr, pinterest, internet, wherever...and when you see yourself, comparatively, you think you look fat. In all honesty, boobs and butts are made of fat. So seeing as those parts are a little bigger on you, yes, you have fat. let me be clear here: YOU ARE NOT FAT, YOU HAVE FAT. Don't cringe when I say that, because you wouldn't be able to live without fat...no one can. even models have fat, in fact, a lot of them have a high percentage of body fat. Big butts are great, and every girl wants big boobs. It's absolutely nothing you should be ashamed of. Also, those proportions might look a little bigger to you since you are shorter, I'm short too, and I'm just saying you might be seeing something a little different..a girl who is 36-24-36 and 5'2" will look a lot different than a girl who is 36-24-36 and 5'8". You could have a bit of body dysmorphia, but I don't think that's you whole problem right there. It's really what you are comfortable with. It seems to me like you like your proportions, so then rock what you've got. If you really see yourself as fat, then I mean running and eating healthy wouldn't hurt. I'm the same height and weight, but have smaller hips than you (I think, after that Thanksgiving dinner I may be up to 40 lol) but I'm a pear so my hips are my widest point, my issue is my legs are too big. We all have issues with our bodies. I googled your proportions and all the girls there seem fine, some a little bigger but I think they were actually bigger than you, so really it's up to you. What I see is a girl with low self esteem and who hasn't learned how to be comfortable with her rockin curves yet. If you seriously can't stand them, trim em down. Otherwise just work on your self esteem because that sounds like all you need. You need to be as positive as the people giving you those compliments. Your insecure...don't know what for...you're turning heads when you walk through the doooor...you don't know you're beautiful..that's what makes you beautiful...
I'm gonna leave you with that :) If you need more help I'm here, sorry bout the super long answer :)2