Does the *fat girl* ever get noticed?

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I have always been significantly larger than my friends, the *fat one*. I am currently 5'4 116 lbs and yes still the fat one by quite a ways. My friends love to tell me about what tiny sizes they wear and gasp in horror when they hear the size I wear. As if no one could actually be as big as I am and honestly I didn't think I was anything but normal. I am going to try and lose 10 lbs now to get more normal hopefully then I can wear nice things and a swimsuit, I will still be the biggest girl amongst the people I know at 106 lbs but I don't honestly think I could ever get down to the size they are. I wish I could shop with and trade clothes with them but that's never going to happen. Girls what weight do you think I should push for? Is 106 lbs good? Am I being delusional to think that weight is thin? Guys do you ever notice the fat one? Am I too big for guys to be interested in?
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I am more curious why girls feel the need to perpetuate unrealistic physical stereotypes? Why make each other miserable? People completely bash celebs who gain even a 1 lb, I don't get it. By the way I don't want to be as thin as they are cause in high school I was for awhile and I looked terrible naked! I look much better with a little meat but I do start to feel bad when everyone including my family members who actually are overweight and obese keep calling me fat or chubby.
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Thank you I have received many kind answers so its okay to stop answering now lol I actually have questions I'm really hoping for an answer too but this is the only one that gets responses. Anyways I realize how silly I was being and how silly I can be at times. I grew up being told I wouldn't be loved by anyone if I was heavy and then those same people told me I was fat at a hw in fact for awhile I was as thin as my scarecrow friends and my relatives would still call me fat and buy me XXXL
Does the *fat girl* ever get noticed?
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